You Must Simply Wait

This month marks the 3rd year that Israel came into my life. Who knew when my El Al flight landed in from Bangkok that I would still be here. Doing the things I do best.
I can’t help but think how this week would have a different connotation if my document wasn’t lost last week. Or, if I had more faith that the request for an urgent copy would actually arrive before my Monday immigration meeting.
Last Thursday I had one of the most amazing nights I’d had in a long time. We were celebrating a close friend’s bachellorette night. The night composed of kicking up our heels to traditional Israeli music, microphones and wine. After many glasses of red red wine, I explained my situation to some wine induced friendships. “it’s known for the Rabbi’s to make it hard for you” explained one of them.
Don’t I know. At this moment, I am almost convinced the losing of my document was intentional. Another way the Rabbinical Court extends their view that my decisions aren’t completely ‘in my hands’. I can accept this philosophy. In theory only. The fact of the matter is: I believe, through my experiences, that I’ve already exhausted that philosophy.
The frustrating part of this religious bureaucracy is that- in fact, I have been rejected over the alloted 3 times. In fact, every individual organization i’ve been to has rejected me over the traditional 3 times that Judaism is allotted to reject. That is a total of 9 rejection over the last year alone. Not counting the existential ‘rejections’ I have accumulated just to be here in itself.
So what does this mean? Absolutely nothing. It means that I still have to sort my life out without being a citizen. It means that my insurance is still costly and I can’t plan my next few months because I have to make sure I am available so I can receive the lost document.
Can you feel my frustrations?
I can.
I’ll tell you something else. The only way to get through exigent times like this is to truly believe that it’s your destiny.
Fortunately, I know it is.

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Germapino with a Jewish Twist. Twist. Collective Thoughts of a Ginrod are the musings of a Texas born,half German, half Filipina girl who who went on a trip to Bangkok and found herself in the Holy Land , as a jew, married to an Englishman, with 3 kids and a pup named Henck.